从我出生那天起，我怀疑。我身上就是比别人少了些东西，那就是＂自信＂。自信，从来没有在我身上找到。虽然，我改进了。是一点又一点。我希望最后，我会实现自己的目标。我会耐心地接受考验。现在，我知道，我应该做什么、就是做回最原始的自己。你根本不需要配合别人，因为想变成别人喜欢的样子而折磨自己。讨厌你的人不会一辈子停留在你身边，他们始终会离开。你只有做回自己，才快乐。我们真的理不了那么多。只要，你觉得对，喜欢开心就好。^_^

With Yen Xin & Cheryl before the Primary School Educational Camp (XXT). Having steamboat buffet, enjoyed chit-chatting with them. ❤❤❤ They are current stress up of their coming UEC , in not more than 3 weeks. I wish them all the best. May GOD blessed them. 

一个令我流了很多泪水的成长营。说是给孩子的成长营，对我来说其实也是给我的成长营。我看到了很多也学到了不少。从错误中学习。柔佛，冶美华小，这个地方，为我开了具历史性的一章。去了那，我的生命也从此有了那么一点点的不一样。看起来很严重似的，但确实就是那么的慎重。人生中，多了那么体贴聪明乖巧的干妹妹。

刚开始，其实自己也觉得没什么

好一段时间没写部落格了，我总是喜欢在比较情绪化的时候写一写部落格发泄下心情，可以说是另一个发泄情绪的管道。

好吧，其实，我想说，今年过得实在太快了，快得有点喘不过气来。来回顾下今年的一切。从年头那个像一场梦又令人难以忘怀的国民服务到一个月的英文速成班再到college。想说，时间啊，我还是斗不过你。在拼命往前冲的同时，我们是否会吧那丝丝回忆也一起带着走呢？现在的进展，我们没得走马看花了。只希望，我不会把任何回忆遗留吧。我生命中的每一位过路客和曾经很要好的朋友我会很努力的记得你们全部。我忘了我在哪儿看过或听过这么段有意思的话，＂我们生命中会有许多位过路客，有的来了，在你身边停留一下就走了。而有的，走了和你分隔多年，你们会在相见，只是不懂几时会重遇对方。但有的，你见一次就不会再见到彼此。有些缘分，就仅仅那么的短暂。短得，令你叹息。可是，这每位过路客的到来都有他们的任务：那就是让你学习，让你领悟一些道理，等你学会了，再离开。＂我认同，这句话，从幼儿园到小学再到中学到现在大学预备班。认识了不少人，但有很多都失去联络了。有的忘了他们的存在，但是事实是残酷的。有的，你不想接受的，也得忍着心中的痛接受它。我想说，其实，我的许许多多过路客种让我学会了不少，领悟了好多。有的曾经伤过我的，有的对我很好的，他们的到来让我领悟了很多。这一切又一切，都是那亲爱的上天的安排。缘分，虽然是上天的安排。但是，梦想（未来）还是取决于自己手掌心，只是看你愿不愿意，牺牲自己去逐梦而已。但是，别忘了。人的一生，是因梦想而变得有意义的。初中三那年，爸爸去他老板家，那时我不知怎的也跟着爸爸妈妈去。是那位老板的孩子给了我很大的影响力。他有七名孩子，五位医生，一位律师和一位会计师。都是社会的成功人士。他爸爸，是位很严的爸爸，从小对他们管教严谨。平日，无电视。他为自己的孩子定设一定的作息时间表。上学、冲凉、午饭、运动、晚饭、读书做功课。每天十一点多睡觉。听那位老板的诉说，那顿时强大的震撼力刚好击中我的心底。我立志以他们为榜样，要破纪录，成为王家的第一名医生。从此，我的责任可重大了。我一定要打破这纪录。这也算是给爸爸妈妈这十多年来苦心抚养我长大的回报。也能是给爱有样学样的弟妹一个榜样。总而言之，在每个人的生命当中，有些路，走下去会很累，但不走，会后悔：那就逐梦之路。

相信自己，你也可以想飞机或鸟儿一样展翅高飞。为自己的未来，为了你的人生目标，为了你爱的人，展翅高飞。有一天，你会抵达你的目的地的。加油！❤

老实说，我，一点也不开心。很多朋友，每位都认识但一个真心朋友都没有那种感觉烂透了。我知道没有人能比得过你们。我对自己彻底的失望。我不是没有朋友，而是很多朋友。可是，在很多人在一起时，有种搭不上话、不明白发生了什么事的感觉。我，很怀疑自己的沟通能力。今天，终于又为了朋友而哭。你知道，我看起来朋友很多，但是其实好孤单。这个在心情低落时，便能感受到。因为，我不知应向谁诉苦。

Finally, I updated my blog. My maid had gone for a few weeks and my parents don't want to hire any maid anymore so three of us have to help out on housework like sweeping, mopping the floor, doing the washing up, cleaning up after eating, folding the clothes. Well, I admit that I'm such a blissful child since I bornt. That's what I fell very lucky for. So it's time to learn to be independent, learn to deal with those household work. 

Finally, It's alr half month of July, well this month is neither bad nor good. Test had just finished. I'm totally unsatisfied with my test results although I knew I won't score well because I didn't not pay much attention, made enough efforts and tried my best. I knew I didn't not study enough , wasting time doing unimportant stuff. That's why at the end it proved to me. This is what I'll get if I did that. I was frustrated looking comparing my results and my classmates' results. It's a huge contrast. Most of my classmates are not only smart but also very hardworking. I can see their efforts. They study everyday after school, do all homework that our tutors giving to us, did many extra exercises. But what I've done? Honestly, I only study the notes that teacher giving to me. That's all. I can't be so distracted anymore. I've to change my bad habit. I used to study at the last minutes at my previous time but now I shouldn't continue this habit. I actually very worry if I can sustain my scholarship. No!!!! Ying Jie, pls study harder! Still rmb your dream?

To be real instead of perfect. ;)

好吧，我知道有一天，我会再次像过往那样，忍住心中的痛与遗憾向暗恋说声再见。怎么给我勇气？或许，一次初恋情就结婚的人比较幸福，因为不用经历分手的痛，对吗？我该不该在这次来个不一样的改变，化被动为主动？

Once my maid had gone , actually that's not change much. We just have to help on some household work. Household work is not hard but sometimes it's just make us felt tired. It's time for us to learn to be independent. I was such an typical independent child since small. That's not good so this's the time. Ya lah, I noe I'm so lucky to born to have ppl to rely on. I'll treasure everything that GOD & my parents have given to me. I'm so appreciate for things that I've. Although sometimes I may not satisfied for some single thing that I don't have while others have. Just trying to upgrade myself. 

Sometimes, how u want ppl to look on u is depend on how you are looking on yourself. Image is set up by ourselves , not others.

So today I was lucky enough. Because I 

could see you, & it's more than once. A bit weird if telling out how mad I'm but I just tell. So, at first. I knew u would be having class on DK 2 at 8am but my class at Dk is at 9am so I was waiting forward & keep peering at Dk 2 while ppl walking out from Dk2. But I couldn't see u. Just felt a bit disappointed & guessed that I won't be able to see u this week.

After having Biology lecture, there was a guy entered the lectures telling  us abt our alumnus coming back to TARC to give us talk abt studying in Oxford University. Yes, they're currently studying in Oxford University, the top ranking University that most of the ppl not dare to set it as the dream University including me. One of them is my secondary school senior, TARC principal's son , who scored 4A* in his A level examination. Everyone just have thisO_O  knowing his results. Yes, he is just like a genius.  While another two are studying law & maths respectively in Oxford. Well, the talk is given at my break time so I attended the talk. Of course, I was wondering if he attending too. As my estimation, I thought he won't attend. Before entering the classroom, I saw he & his classmates inside the room. I thought we were entering the wrong room but my classmates said it's here, see our classmates are in here too. So , I felt so happy seeing him there too. He was wearing specs today , looking smart. He looks good either with or without specs. ^^ But the thing is he seemed didn't noticed me there. I just glance at him for a few time. Okay. Can't be too obvious.

Second times, after Applied Maths lecture , while I was walking out the lecture he was just standing out the lecture hall with his classmates. I felt happier again. But again, I think he didn't see me. That's the thing. 

After having Physics class , wanna pass my poster design to my group leader who same Dk with him. Looking inside the lecture, seeing him inside too. They were just wanna start their test. 

 

My classmates know my secret cuz we were talking about this topic tgt before started the talk , I show them but they couldn't see. 

Yes. Seeing him is one of the thing that can brighten me up. ^^

Monday is not completely a bad day if I have the chance to meet you. Even though it's just  a short glance, it can light up my day. Yes, our crush just like the remove control of our emotion. I hope you recognized me, I didn't changed much actually. & I hope tomorrow I'm lucky enough to see you. 😊❤

There's another very important subject having test tomorrow. Wish I able to answer all the questions. I felt so sorry for not trying my best efforts to study it. Just need some momentum to push me up. Chemistry is my favorite subject, even though it's  though but I just like it. Yea. I swear I'll study harder this time.😊 

Just smile while u r not feeling well which can make u feel better. Try it, it's effective actually. ^^ Life is better when you smile. Looking at the Minions & u will know why they're so inportant showing a nice smile in front the others. They're so adorable because of their cheerful appearance just make ppl mad on them. It's too cute. & I'm getting crazy with the Minions.

I wish I can finish all the test faster & go watch Despicable Me 2 because I just can't wait for it! Impatience . 

嗨。你是怎么找到我的部落格的？谢谢光临，我不怎么爱显露自己的秘密，个人比较低调点，但是你来了我也很欢迎！^_^ 

部落格，是我发泄情绪的地方，就像是把心中的不悦说给别人听一样，说出来了，心情就好些了。好吧，其实我承认我个人比较笨一点，喜怒唉乐写在脸上，不懂得用笑来掩盖自己心中的痛，常被别人讲我苦瓜脸。我尽量改进了。我改变可很多，这是我妈妈和我老朋友说的。虽然还是没有很好，但我会继续改变！❤ 

也许18岁的我，还是要平淡孤单地过。应该也没有什么精彩特别的事发生了。还是一样，就读书。好吧？你觉得我是不是很纳闷啊？我就是那么被动，想得到，但不会尽力争取。相信有一天，有人会夺走他，我的暗恋又要以失望收场了。还是，做个老姑婆终老了？

随着时间，渐渐成长，渐渐领悟。想对暂时没有爱情的单身人士说，爱情不需要急。因为，最后你只是跟那么一个人，携手到老。慢慢的，耐心的你，有一天也会等到，找到那个对的人。先用心，珍惜当下的幸福，体会人生的精彩。为自己未来打拼。爱情的关键不在于早而在于对的人。哪怕是晚也好、只要他／她是对的人，你也会幸福。我知道对的人有一天在一个时空下会出现。我会耐心地等待。❤

有时，我很怀疑，我的心是不是玻璃做的？它很脆弱，不经意地会不小心被弄碎。但是，总是自己慢慢复原。我有很多朋友，知心的只有几个。伤心时，会很想找个诉苦的地方。但是，很多时候，不想打扰他们。就让时间淡化，让伤口复原。明天，又换张开心的笑脸迎人吧！许多人常说只有在中小学才会认识真正知心的好知己。这句话，对我来说有点可怕。是不是，人长大人了，性格渐渐的恶化？把不是性格恶化的迹象吗？人越变越现实。我很单纯，单纯地想对每个朋友都很好。但是，却害怕有一天会浑身伤痕累累。好吧。我希望老天保佑我在学院也能遇见想中学知己那么真诚的朋友。

有些事不能一开始就设下定居。慢慢专研才能领悟知晓。希望，我是幸运的那位。

This year I've known so many ppl . Maybe I got more fate with more ppl this year. I can make friends easily. Just talk to them normally. My friends even said you seems like got so many friends . Yea. Maybe . But my previous time was not like this. That's why I appreciate it. Love making new friends. Feeling awesome ! :D 

Yes. I saw you on Monday. DK 2 . You opened the door I'm standing right opposite to u , neither near nor far. If I wasn't wrong, you had a short glance on me. I wondered if you recognized me. 

& today your classmates passed by me. I looked at them & they looked at me with dont know what expression. I wondered why they always look at me so ..... I don't know. @-@ 

Tomorrow is my first Biology test. I'm so nervous but still wanna online & this made me even more nervous & worried. Ms. Pei Fen had told us that Biology is a very subject that very easy to understand but very difficult to score . Sometimes , some ppl only get not more than 10 marks. Ohhhh . No . I'm so worried. I'm now studying it. Halfway. Haven't finished . Plssss I hope everything will be all right ! 

今天是美好的一天。早晨就有🌈 的出现。似乎一种美好的迹象。一天下来感觉还不错。只是累了点。

没想到他竟然看出我今天特别累。昨晚两点多起床做功课到四点多。@@ 

其实，我也不懂我为什么要对他那么好。啊啊啊〜 不懂啊！ 

我不该那么容易因为你而影响自己的情绪。因为我不能保证我这样做是值得的还是浪费时间与力气的。

I just felt depressed when I didn't know who can I shared my secret. Not because I've no friends, I got many friends .I could share my secret bt sometimes I'll worry if they don't willing to listen to me. Like very fuyan !So I'll stop telling them. Bt I'm the one that can't control myself to share sth I felt happy or sad. Isn't a friends is the person that will share your happiness & sadness? When I'm really excited just to share sth when the reaction of the person seems nt willing to hear I'll get really hurt. I just too easy to be hurted ! :( because I take every friendship really important bt I didnt felt that ppl do the same things to me! 

Felt like crying when knowing this. My emotion changes easily. :(

Medical school ?! Will I achieve my dream? Worrying...

Such a coincidence :))

One day, I went to return the student attendance record book to the SPUS office & waited for mr low to ask him about the change of venue for practical class. I waited for a while & I was impatience because mr low was still busy talking with other ppl. Then, I decided to return to the office later. So, while I opened the door, suddenly a guy appeared very near in front of me. It's such a coincidence because we opened the door at the same & not realizing that behind the door there was also a ppl opening the door.I got shocked. He is very tall.I lifted my head , looking at him. Feeling so awkward! & he said sorry to me. Suddenly, I recognized that face, he was the one that I partner with during the midnight patrolling at my St.John division camp. I could recognized his face , I wondered if he recognized me. I'm very good at recognizing ppl's faces actually. I just wondered if he does. It has been one & a half year I had not met him. I remember that time I didn't talked much with him while we're patrolling because I was such a shy girl that time. I still remember his name & wanna call him but I scared that he couldn't recognized me so I didn't do that! :3

Weekends :D

It's the day I'm waiting for. My weekends. A temporary break. A relief. Ya. It's the second week. My classmates had tried to make everyone closer . That's great! ;) I just like them. They are natural, friendly, kind & helpful. I've no pressure being with them. :) I like the way they are. I've never like my classmates like how I do now. Ya. I can be a real me naturally. I like who I'm now because I'm who I'm now. :) ya, that's my target & I've achieved it.

Well, before I knew them I thought my results is already good but after I met them I think that my results still have to have more improvement because they're genius . How can they get so many A+? Omg. You thought you're smart , they are still lots of ppl who smarter than you a lot. A part of feeling stressful studying with super talented classmates ,it provides me a great chance to get myself more improvement & more efforts to achieve brilliant results. I wish I can be a better & smarter person! Haha:D

Being a class rep is not I'll ever though of but I'm a class rep now. I felt stress for having lots of extra jobs but a other than that I get to talk & know all of my classmates now. Everyone knows me in my class. & everyone like to friend with me on class. Never have classmates treat me like this before but I feel so happy & touching now. Yea! I've changed. I'm not the previous Ying Jie anymore. I'm who I'm now. I felt so touched when my friends asked me ," hey, did you be a committee for any society or a class monitor before ?" I said, " no, I never." " really?! Why you look so steady?& you can handle all those stuff nicely!  " " really ?! Am I ?" First time , there are ppl who praising me for that. I felt touched.;) I'll try to be a better class rep. :)

Today is Saturday. Gonna spent my Saturday wisely. Treasure every leisure time I've before getting regret after wasting too much time. Try to force myself to study more even though I'll not did this while I was studying in secondary school. Ppl thought I'm really hardworking but actually I'm not. I actually wasted lots of time online at home. I'm very easily to be distracted!

Before having a rest, do revision first! :D Hi, Physics ! I'll try to like you. I hope you like me too! :P

A fruitful Sunday

So I've a fruitful Sunday spending the while day doing revision for all the subjects, Physics, Pure Maths, Biology & Chemistry. My Sunday is meaningful. ^_^

Physics is still easy for the first chapter so I still don't have big problem with it. :)

Pure Maths is easy because I've learnt before. It's even easy than sm3 standard.

My Bio lecture scared us for the first lecture by telling us that A levels Biology is easy to understand & study but very hard to score. We have to be prepare to accept the results that make us frustrated & don't set too high target. & she told us we will even get no more than ten marks over one hundred marks. Really?! Maybe I think. But I'll try my best to score well because it's an important subject for me.:) 

 My second favourite subject, Chemistry! 

Ohh, the lecture so fast. We always have to write very quickly to keep up with him. He told us after studying A levels we will walk , write, & eat faster. Haha. Maybe. Because I also felt that I walk faster these days . Maybe we always have to rush to the lecture hall & tutorial classroom since TARUC is so huge! :3 

Ok, not bad lahh . Since I've try my very first step to do revision which I'll not do in my secondary school. In secondary school, I always like to wait until last minutes & force myself very seriously to study & swallow all the syllabus I till so stressful. So, I decide to do revision ever day after class. ^_^

Ya, I know I'm just an obedient child. Too obedient ! :P 

Today is Mother's Day. I felt so sorry because I really didn't have time to buy present for her. & I'm also not creative enough to make any handmade gift. So I just write a very touching letter to her. Although sometimes we'll argue with each other, I'll still love my mum soooo much because I know there will not be a second person who will treat me so well like my mum treat me. ;)  only parents will love & sacrifice themselves for us for no reason. You can never ever find the second person like them. :)

First week of college life ^w^

Yea, it's the start of my college life & for me it's such a culture shock. It's the first week, and sadly I found that it was not like how I expected last time. It's still a stressful study life. Or maybe only for TARUC students but not for the other college students. When the lectures ask who is the merit scholars in A levels , I saw there are nearly 80% of students raised up their hand. Although I'm also one of them but I was so shocked because I thought college life will not as competitive as my secondary school life. Never could I imagined that college life is even competitive than secondary school life. Only the first few days of lesson, my classmates told me they did revision everyday. But what did I do? I went back & online & slept ! Lol! -.-  How can they be so hardworking. I remember I  give myself a very high & hard target ------ be one of the top students on TARUC , but now ? If I didn't change myself to be hardworking like them then probably I'll be dropped behind. Don't be set high target first , if not I'll really frustrated after that. Let's try to keep on my scholarship first. I'm really scared if I can't manage to keep my A levels results above the level and my scholarship will be withdrawn. Nooooo , plsssss!  Remember your dream? Plss, work hard plssss Ying Jie ! This is more important . Pls don't be distract , pls be determined !  





There are still got things that make me glad of myself. I really did the promise to change myself. I used to be a extremely shy & quiet girl in my primary & secondary school. I never have the courageous to change myself although I always keep telling myself to change. But every year I still same class with most my old classmates so I was still not dare to change & I get so disappointed of myself. Sooooo. It comes to plkn. Yea, a new environment of course is a great chance for me to change. Although I've change a little bit but for my plkn friends , I'm still the shy & quiet girl. Soooo, that time I felt depressed too. But there I met a really active & outgoing girl who try to advise me & encourage me to change. What very funny is she said she is too noisy & she want to change to be a more quiet girl. Then both of us make a promise to be the person we want to be---- like she wanted to be quieter & I wanted to be noisier. Well, it's so funny! & ten years later we want to see if we got did our promise. After plkn she went to a college and she told me on Facebook that she had change to be quieter. I felt so happy to see her efforts for changing. But what about me? I'm still shy ? Who has stolen my courageous, I wondered.




Then, it started a new path if life------ college life. So, I keep telling & encouraging myself not to bother too much because you really can't pls everyone to like you. Even though you are so good but there are still some ppl will envy you. So why keep hiding the real you infont inside , just showing the real one. There are not my business if ppl don't like me. Am I right? Who should I bother too much? Can't I just treat myself better?



That's why I really made the efforts to change. The first step , I've made out. When the teacher asked who volunteer to be the class rep, I just raised up my hand. Actually I really waited for so long but finally I just raised. I would never be sooooooo brave like this. You know everyone is the anonymous, I still don't know they well but I just raised up my hand. So , yea, now I'm the class rep of my class. Responsible to do so many things which make me felt so stressful nowadays. Do photocopying job, announcing things, open fb group, collect tutorial books fees, discussing things with other class 's class rep . Of course, I felt regretful of being a class rep which gives me lots of extra jobs but I get to know everyone in my class , my lectures and other class ppl. So that's why it's also a very good opportunity for me. So I just felt glad for my changes. I try to show the real me infront of others. I just want to be natural & simple.


Luckily, I've friendly & cooperated classmates. They're friendly & they won't choose who they want to friend with. Although they are a bit cool in the first few days but now I can see their change. Ya, we're closer now but that's not enough I wish to have a college friends & classmates like a big family. We support & have fun together.That's how I want my college life to be. Not only studying, but also interesting & fantastic! :D

回首过去的自己，原来我不再是以前那个 天真的我。

Hmmm.... met my previous secondary classmate yesterday. I was so shocked when i saw him at the restaurant and that time i was with my mum. While we are eating he suddendly came our seat and sit down to talk to us. I just wondered how can he be so brave? But this kind of attitude is the attitude that I admire just not like me lack of self-trust , be afraid and too care of other ppl's thought. It's that really important?

As we are  getting grown up, some believes will not make sense anymore because we know that something will not ever become realistic and we are thinking too much. Once we get it, we will know that those things that we're very keen for last time will not be needed anymore.

Times really flies. I can't imagine that I'm going to become eighteen soon. I seems like not willing to grow up. Ya, I admit that I'm such a disindepenent child. Well, real world won't be sympathy for us, we have to keep ourselves tough to face problems when we're grown up. 

Eventually, I received my offer letter from TAR College yesterday. Yeah, I've the qualification to be a 100% scholar but I've to pass all my A level examinations.Therefore,I swear I will treasure the chance and try my best to maintain my results above the level and  take all the scholarship throughout my A level study. I don't know if I've made the right decision to choose Tar College but I wish everything and every arrangement that I made will be good to me. I hope so.

Of course now I'm waiting forward to start a new path of life. College life seems fresh to me with new environment, new lecturers,and new friends. But every time the more keening i wish something to happen the more I 'll be disappointed with the things. well, so maybe I'll be better to be as usual. The main goal for me for this new path that I'm going to travel soon will be---------------changing myself to be a better person. A confidence, out-going, self-trusted, brave, determined, open-minded and positive thinking person is who I want to be in my near future. Of course, changing attitudes is the most challenging stuff for human beings but there is nothing impossible if we determined to try something and believe that we will be succeed one day. 

Ya, I wanna be the Go-Getter. I live my life  for my goals.

消息传的很快，今天很多人打电话来恭喜我。我很惊讶，但也很开心。大家都以我为傲那种感觉真好。但，我想说一山还有一山高，还有很多很多人比我更好，所以下回我会更努力，我要成为更加完美的那个。:)



爸爸妈妈常告诉我们，耀眼的成绩是孩子赐给父母最棒的礼物。所以我用成绩来证明我对他们的爱。虽然还不够别人好，但我知道他们都以我为傲。这些日子所牺牲的时间，睡眠，娱乐与精力并没有白费，果然为我换来了我意想中满意的成绩。那种成就感令我有种笔墨形容不到的高兴。也许，上天真的有保佑我吧。谢谢。我感恩这一切。也保证了下次会更加努力。我的下个目标—————— Be one of the top student.



人生就是要有目标才能获得精彩。我会努力为目标而战斗到底。

So now I reached the T-junction, Dont know to go straight, turn right or turn left, no guidance. However, i've to figure out  the correct pathway because I'm d one who walk the path no any other person else. so, i have to think properly. so, pls dont wait for other ppl 2 make the choice . I'm nt a little child anymore, I'm going to be eighteen soon. why dont try to make choice independently ?



Today, mum brought to visit  Methodist College. Ya, this college has good English learning environment bt it makes me feel so stress becox  I'm nt good in speaking.Maybe my English will have good improvement if i enroll  to the college. The size of the college also amazed me, so small. It can be 1/4 of my previous school. Bt tat's nt d problem if the school has great professional staff n excellent students.The only thing is the time make me feel so rush. If i choose March in take, I'll have to start school by  next Monday which is two more days to open school Omg, sooooo rush for me lah! @_@ I havent prepared yet. I need time to improve my English especially in Speaking! I'm extremely lack of comfidence with it. Luckily today I chatted wif a friend who is studying A level in science now and he gave me lots of opinion abt A level study. He told me if I choose March intake, it would be so stress for me becox i'll have to rush to take the exam at the same time wif students of Jan intake and it's very hard to catch up. Besides, late is better than fast bt learnt nothing,



For tomorrow, mum and dad decided 2 brg me 2 seek for information at Taylor's college, Well; of course i do love Taylor's becox the campus are more beautiful than many of the other colleges in Malaysia. And it provided well-equiped facilities.The only thing bt for me is the huge problem...... the tuition fees are so expensive. Of course my parents will say it's okay if i can study well  they dont care abt the prices. Bt i know they will be very stress becox they nt only need to paid for my sch fee and also my bro and sis. Meanwhile, my mum called our sibling who is ex-Taylor's student and he is a doctor now. He said Taylor's quite good n it can be the top college in Malaysia. If i wanna take medicine, Taylor's is a good choice.So, i dont know. I just like a car which loss its way at a T-junction, hesitate whether to go straight, turn left or right! HEADACHE! T_T

Struggling for a few months. It's time to prove the effort and hard work tat v made for our Spm exam. I'm so curious n nervous abt my results. Many of my friends said they believe I can get brilliant results but I really wish tat . Hope me and every 2012 Spm candidated can satisfy wif our spm results. Wish everything's all right ! :) I wanna get scholarship n save my parents money. I wish my parents can be proud of me! :)

Plkn is not nasty yet it's awesome

Well, it's quite a long time since the last time I uploaded my blog. Yea, finally it's like what I want , made awesome friends, learnt things and gained experience from plkn. So, finally I did it. I'm so glad I've d chance 2 be chosen as a plkn pelatih. Sometimes, I will think tat it's all by God's will. God want me to be a better person then HE let me to be chosen .


首先，我的第一个好朋友，。她，来自单亲家庭。她妈妈在她念着小六那年患癌逝世。那年她最小的妹妹才三岁。年级才小小就得面对失去亲人的痛苦。没有母爱的灌溉试问一个小孩要怎样茁壮成长？她从小就没有个完整的家。她的家庭成员有，爸爸，姐姐，她，弟弟和妹妹。他们都不住在一起。爸爸因为养不起他们于是将他们送给亲戚照顾而自己一人在外凭着割胶谋生。从小，她姐姐与她跟外婆住。她弟弟与妹妹给阿姨顾。她忘了一家人相聚在一起那种温馨的感觉是怎样，更忘了母爱的温暖是如何。他们一家人似乎没有一张完整的合照。是她，让我体会到亲情的可贵。是她，让我体会自己父母所给予我的爱。是她，让我更懂得珍惜我所所拥有的幸福。在那一瞬间，我突然觉得，能成为我父母的女儿，我很幸福。我什么都不该怨了，因为我是个很幸福的孩子。可能我上辈子是个好人。当然，这辈子也会是，我要下辈子一样那么幸福。谢谢，上我遇见她，让我趁早就更懂得珍惜自己拥有的一切。:)



于是在离营前的两个星期，我又与另一个她相识为好朋友。起初，我从没想过我们两有这样的一天。因为，我们两的个性差距蛮大的。她，为人外向，直接，敢发敢言，能言善辩，高调。我，内向害羞，胆小不感在众人面前发言，没主见。自从那天，我们一起玩flying fox，一起肩并肩渡过进森林时的一切障碍，记得当时她有还几次在我爬不上山时拉我一把。还有，一人一只耳机躺在帐篷里边听音乐边仰望天上明亮的繁星诉说对方的心事。我们深厚的友谊就这样慢慢在短短两个星期建立了。我们是同组的，我们常常会再一起。她曾说，她是那种看似很多朋友其实没什么朋友的人。我惊叹，原来，也有很对人的内心是与外表不同的。也许，我也是吧？她说我其实是那种外冷内热的人 。我想，我真的那时候才发现。其实，在她身上我也学会了很多。我从很久以前就下定决心要变成一个很有自信又外向的人，但没有一起做到。她，鼓起了我改变自己的动力。她对我说，＂我们要做最真实的自己，不必太在乎别人因为你不能要求世界上么个人都喜欢你。一个在完美的人也会有人因妒忌而讨讨厌他。＂ 还有，＂一个女人的美丽不主要是在于外貌的亮丽而是那女人身上散发出的自信。＂ 还有，＂自信就是自己给自己信心。若连自己都对自己没信心怎样要求别人对你有信心？＂还有＂人生只有一次，这次不做，下次就不一定有机会了。＂ ＂主动只是需要那么一点点的勇气，冲破了就是了。＂＂practice makes perfect ." 她就像个姐姐，很会教我,鼓励我与保护我。我还从她身上学会，我们应认真严肃地选择自己的另一半,选择一个能给到我们幸福的另一半。我们两还约定了，十年后要成为一个跟棒的人。希望我们都会成功。她更我一样，也来自一个幸福的家庭。从小也是在父母的疼爱下成长,但 她没有丝毫的不懂事而是很懂事，很会想。所以, 我也很庆幸自己遇见她并与她相识为好朋友。若有缘,或许我们会读同所学院。 ;)